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June 30, 2026 12:05 AM

Recovering workaholic

well, trying to recover at least.

What motivates you to work hard?

i was raised to believe that working and earning money is like the most important thing in life, so i've kind of always been a workaholic, and i'm actually really trying to stop being that way since it just leads me to burnout

I think the question implied that working hard is a good thing. It probably is, but that's not how my brain took it.

I had a meeting yesterday that I was absolutely dreading because I dread every meeting because meeting means talking to people about work. It ended up being perfectly fine, but I don't think I'll ever stop dreading meetings for anything really. Call it a meeting and I won't look forward it.

I was doing pretty well with working on my Teochew and focusing on myself and not doomscrolling too much, but then I went on a family vacation for a week, and I also started feeling a little anxious again about all the things I have to do, so I don't think I've really recovered from that yet.

With moving to a new apartment, and trying to register the space as a charity, and all the summer plans, and the endless amounts of things to do in WhatTCSay, well, there's just a lot of things to juggle right now. And I don't know how to juggle. I'm staring at a bunch of boxes in my living room and I really just want it to be cleared and organized and I want to have nice lamps in the room that I'm sitting in at night.