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November 12, 2022 3:57 PM

I'm working again

For the past two weeks it seems like the people in my apartment building are constantly doing laundry. I've had to do my last two loads of laundry at friends' houses. And today, when I don't have to do any laundry, the machine is finally available.

Anyway, I've been back at work for three weeks and it's been an adjustment. Work itself isn't really that bad. It's not as busy during this time of year, and we've made changes to my team's processes so I don't have as many meetings to attend. Work is interesting enough, but not too hard. It's pretty chill.

But work just takes up so much time. How am I supposed to work 40 hours a week, cook my own meals, exercise almost every day, keep my apartment tidy, occasionally hang out with friends, and get enough sleep? I didn't even bring up my personal projects. How do people with families do this? How do other people have so much free time that they get bored?

And there's something about working that gets me so hungry. I am convinced that critical thinking burns more calories than physical activity. I've been eating breakfast every morning, before I start work, and at 10am I'm feeling the shakes, and I need food. It's like clockwork. I'm still trying to figure out how to deal with this.

So yeah, I still want to keep saving money so I can retire early and just have more time to do the things I want to do. I don't need a ton of money. I've been tracking my spending and I spend way less than I make, but the unknown cost of health insurance keeps lingering in the back of my head. My dad is currently on COBRA, and I'm looking into options on the healthcare marketplace on healthcare.gov for when that runs out. And holy crap, these options are terrible. COBRA is not cheap. It's like 4 or 5 times the amount he had to pay when he was still working. But the marketplace healthcare options are even more expensive. And none of the options even come close to having coverage as good as what he's getting now.

I hate the fact that getting healthcare is so much of a hassle. I hate that there is even a "healthcare marketplace" to begin with, that you can shop for health insurance. I hate the idea that healthcare is so closely tied to what job you have.

I feel like I shouldn't be complaining about this when I'm privileged enough to even consider retiring early. I'm just trying to help my dad right now, and researching healthcare options has made me very, very tired.


August 7, 2022 2:20 PM

COVID, final part

Man, COVID just threw off my whole summer. I remember going into the summer feeling calmer than usual, yet excited to get more things done for myself. And in the beginning it was going great. But then I went home, and I got COVID, and I've felt kind of in a funk ever since. I want to get back to my projects, but it's been hard to get started. Plus work has been really busy lately, and that isn't helping.

Anyway, in two weeks my sabbatical starts! I'm really really excited, but also a little worried I might not make the most of it.


July 12, 2022 10:22 PM

COVID, part 4

This past Saturday I finally tested negative, and I drove back to Pittsburgh. My fever, sore throat, and nasal congestion all got better pretty quickly, but what's been lingering is the fatigue. The fatigue and constant headaches and feeling completely unmotivated at work. People have told me that this is normal. It's just made me feel bad though because I'm not able to get as much done as I usually do. I've felt like I've been unable to focus at work, and my forehead just has this weird numb feeling to it when I stare at code for too long.

But today felt different. Today was the first day since getting COVID that I didn't feel awful at work.


July 6, 2022 11:35 PM

COVID, part 3.1

Everyone keeps telling me that they hope I feel better soon. My COVID symptoms have not felt worse than any minor cold I've gotten in my life.

It just feels awful to have to stay away from people.


July 6, 2022 8:16 PM

COVID, part 3

It is Day 5. According to the CDC, tomorrow is when I can finally stop isolating. I took another rapid test today, and I definitely still have COVID.

Is it a really faint line?

No, it's just a line.

My symptoms seem to be getting better. Throat is a lot less sore. I slept last night without the use of Mucinex or Sudafed and I only woke up once or twice. I can breathe at night.

I've been trying to work this week, which doesn't really feel great. It seems like after a few hours my head feels weird and I just want to take a break. I hope this gets better next week.

Yesterday during dinner I was feeling kind of lonely so I gave my sister a call and we video chatted. It was good. I miss eating with people. I've been playing Stardew Valley with my free time, and it's nice and relaxing.

Dan brought me some ice cream and sorbet in the middle of my workday, and it was the absolute highlight of my day. It felt incredibly good to taste the frozen dessert in my mouth.


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